Sunday, July 26, 2009
雯
I have been thinking should i write this post in english or mandarin..
which is more suitable for this post ?
My english is poor and i couldn't found any more sensation words or phrase to elaborate my very own special feelings that fit in this particular post...
yet i decided to write it in chinese...
Sorry for this poor grammatical error of my bad english-writting level.
我想了很久..
我应该写吗？
写了又怎样？
因为
有时候在别人的 blog 里
可以看到很多照片 & 很多感情故事
很多...很多...
看着...看着
心想
为什么别人可以怎么诚实的面对自己最内心的那一把 ‘心声’
而
我为什么不能呢？
难道
我真的要因为外来的因素
而一直的...一直的
去
避免一切与你有关的一切吗？
我不想欺骗自己
也不想
欺骗大家
我志祥真的办不到...
This is my blog
I got my own freedom to write to speech to show...
Please do not leave any negative comments here...
If you don't agree or dislike the way i love her...
Please leave....
and Plese Don't Ever Judge her for the way she being..
and My own heart of treating a person which i love..
Because
i remember i said this to someone before that
爱没有分开心还是悲伤...
也没有分谁对谁错....
也没有分对的人还是错的人..
也没有所谓对错的时间...
爱本来就很简单...
我爱她
我就要承认
为什么我要把我的感觉
我的心
全都给藏在最内心的世界里？
我们分手了
已经是 第 80 天了..
快要三个月了..
分手过后
我曾回到槟城找你...
我一直找机会
不停的问
不停的讲
到你都已经很讨厌我了
不想跟我讲话了
不想再听我的电话了
我都不知道
还是一直给你压力
‘对不起’
这些日子
我一点都不好过...
每天
我做的东西就是
观看一切与你有关的事
每天的在想你
每天很狼狈的过日子
明明心里很伤心
都要假扮成没事的样子
和朋友一起...
泪留了下来
也要赶快的抹掉
不然
我就要被骂了...
我不知道为什么泪会留
也许 感觉上和 堕落
很 不 MAN
可是
就是控制不了...
这些日子
I stop sms you
even If i had pay my bill...
I stop calling you
even i wanted to talk to you...
I stop msn you...
even i know you're there....
I stop every single contact with you.....
but every actions i did just can't stop my mind thinking of you...
my heart that is fill up of your images...
every details of you..
Every single little tiny stuff would straightly remind me of you...
I just can't stop the flow of love in the love river that we once share together...
雯 aka Baobei
I know things had change...
Everything no longer stay the same b4 08 of May 2009
But one things i'm sure that still remains the same
is my very own heart that still loving you ever since 28 of December 2008...
我知道我不能把你留在我身边
毕竟你不属于我...
你的心更不在我这边.....
我能做的也
剩下
满满的祝福...
情史上曾经有过这句话
‘ 爱一个人，并不代表一定要拥有她 ’
‘ 有时候让她自由，让她去寻找她要的幸福..她要的生活 也是一种 爱她的表示 ’
虽然 很 痛
可是
这也是我能够给她的唯一 ‘ 另一种幸福 ’
雯
我爱你...
I'll be there for you...
Waiting...
